People say, you won't appreciate the things you have until you lose it.
Sometimes I felt as if I'm taking the beau forgranted as well. (Sorry dear, if you're reading this.) But let me explain. It's just that sometimes, I guess I get to dependant on the beau and I think he'll get the things done for me and save me some work. I know it's bad. I know it's really really bad. But I do not ever mean to have him do all my stuff. Just that, I guess I do love him when he helps me out.
And I really do mean I'm so totally head over heels with him when he helps me out.
So there was once when the beau was asking me about my idea of him switching to a job which requires him to travel away from the city.
2 months ago, I went all sulky and unhappy because I won't be seeing him almost everyday like well, since before we embarked officially on a relationship. You know, it'll be kinda difficult to adapt right?
But now, I guess I can't really expect him to be there for me all the time when I myself am not sure what my schedule will be like next year, considering I'm already in the ladder climbing up to a higher post in my company *woot!* which means, I myself might have to work overtime once a while.
So it's definitely not fair to him.
Therefore, nowadays, I showed my support saying it'll be great. Perhaps I might get the chance to tag along when he flies elsewhere for work too. But deep down, I'm not sure if he knows or not (which he'll probably know after this), I know I'll feel terribly sad when he's away for work.
I think I might need time to get use to him being away once a while. But I definitely know I'll have a hard time adjusting.
Because I love him more and more everyday...